Somebody explain me...

Talking to myself in nowhere...
I'm with a box of doubts and fears
¿Why the hell is all so wrong?
Somebody explain me because I don't get it
And I'm so disappointed at this time...
That I'm thinking if I should run away
If I should escape from this thing that hurts me everyday
'Cause I'm in a no-ending vicious circle
I'm feeling a punch over my heart
¿Why is everything upsidedown?
One day is shine, and the next is dark
Like a huge overcoming storm
This is a vile-evil rollercoaster
And I don't know when is going to stop
I have thousand of illusions
I wanna risk it all
¿Why this thing push me appart?
If words would mean something now...
But is not necessary.. it has that look, it has that actitude
And In spite that I try so hard to make this work...
The rain come to my door
Sadness convince me to leave this dream, this story
To put an end to this suffering
¿Why the hell is all so difficult?
Somebody explain me...
I can't go-do anymore.